To give you a background I dont get well with people i tend to isolate my self from groups, clubs, and parties.

So it was a breath of fresh air for me to join a BDSM (outdoor play) so im just a voyeur (fully clothe) for the past weeks and it was really awesome.

we had an overnight activity. as it was an overnight activity i did get a little help from an illegal substance before going to the venue. In the venue they offered drinks which is laced with a happy pill. I had difficulty moving my body within mins (it felt very good tbh). muscly dude from the corner noticed and they started "the plan". gently layed me down on top of a portable table and started to rip my tank top and shorts.

still laughing at this point (still not worried) then they made me sniff a popper ... never experienced that high but boi did my soul floated and can no longer control my body

Its been a while since i got fucked and this experience might ruin my bottom experience. the dude just casually got a dildo and proceeded to double pen me. the thing that will ruin bottoming for me was. fuck i never felt that good ever CF for the win. so yeah got tossed around couple of times and begone to loose it coz euphoria to strong..

woke up a few hours later and i got pissed on soo yeah. worried that i wont have normal sex ever again ..