The temptation and whispers of lust, self, darkness and Satan have been calling me for years now. All inside me say fight it, but my lust and will say no. The catholic upbringing says what I desire is wrong and damnation, but sexual lusts and desires no longer wish to be denied. I have been heading down this path for years, but seek counsel. I am also looking for a local leather man to take me by my gloved hand over the threshold and down the path