I am new to Satanism. I am a gay 77 year old man and love to worship other men's cock. My dark side wants to explore what it would be like to be completely controlled during sexual activities. I am a sexually submissive bottom and I want to experience bdsm, group cock sucking and receiving anal penetration and cum swallowing, and group perverted sex, especially piss. Are these sexual activities a sign that my dark side is yearning to explore satanism and be sexually used by other men?