I know I have a unique experience. I never had to deconstruct anything before seeing Him as He revealed Himself to me. He has simply always been there. I pestered my parents for an entire year before they held the ritual for my initiation and Cumunion with Him. My belief and connection is a VERY personal thing and my practice is an extention of the foundations I was taught when I was younger. Because I have to admit that what I experience in how I serve Him, how He communicates with me and how I celebrate Him, sacrifice to Him, bond to Him and daily affirm my role, purpose, potential and committment to ALWAYS search for and take the darker path has had a huge impact on my life. I would not trade even the devistation He visited on me when I was denying who I was. Nor the continued provision of all I need, as I need it to do as He inspires me. AVE SATANUS!!!