Is Satanism Avoidance?

Maybe at times it is. Maybe not always. Maybe sometimes it’s a container—a temple of the forbidden where I finally get to feel. Other times, it might become a costume to shield me from vulnerability.

I often gently ask myself:

• Am I using Satanism to reclaim what was stolen from me?

• Or am I using it to punish or distance myself from my more vulnerable needs?

• When I feel most spiritually aligned in Satanism—am I more whole, or more armored?

Satan is about really loving myself. Being myself 100%. Loving sex and your body is so much a part of that, when it is about honest expression of myself.

A parallel analogy for me: I had to decide if being in leather gear can be coming home to myself or a costume and an avoidance. I know when I wear it to be me and when I am being fake. I work to stay real. It's hard.