Not sure what is going on. I feel like something has shifted in me. I am listening to Satanic chant tracks and I feel like there is a demon in me. Not sure if it is me or not. I find myself doing things and making noises I have never heard before. I’m thinking about more dark and twisted things. I like to scratch myself to make it hurt. I painted an upside down cross on my forehead and a pentagram on my chest and jacked off in a dim lit room while looking in the mirror. I didn’t recognize the face looking back. I could swear my eyes were shining or reflecting back at me. What is happening to me?